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♥ Friday, December 14, 2012

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Actually i wrote a lot of post but i dint post out ...
Why ? i also dont know ...

1 year 8 months and 3 days ... will it could be continue or it come to an end ?
Recently our problem keep recycle recycle and recycle ...
Im totally tired with it and i just wish to stop it ..
Because he never care ...

We used to be very happy very sweet ... but now ... everything changed ..
But he said never ...
I keep request for break ... but he keep answering me no ! he dont want !
What he still insist of ???
He said he love me ...
But his love is that special ...
He dont care me ... dont call me
And keep doing the things that hurt me make me up set ...
What relationship is this ?
Can u answer me ???

8:32 AM

♥ Monday, March 28, 2011

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That day i went KL for my singing lesson ...

After reach there , as usual , my fren n i went for lunch 1st ...

This time , my teacher joined us ...

Sure we had chit chating ... we chat bout a relationship ...

I told them what my fren's opinion ...

" We might couldnt be with the one we love the most !"

" We might together with the one who suit us but not love the most !"

" It will end up , finally we love the most that who suit us !"

Is this true ?

Im confusing ...

And how difficult to get the one who is suit us ...

Haixzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

And my teacher heard what i said ...

He answear me yes ! this is true ...

no matter u love how deep the person that not suit u ...

You have to learn to let go ...

if not you will get very suffer in the end ...

This i really know ...

Cause i experience before ... very very very suffer ..

and you will have to pay out so many ...

This remind me the previos relationship that i dont wish to remember dont wish to think back ..

Is just really too bad !!!

12:37 AM

♥ Saturday, March 19, 2011

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This week really busy ... till i couldnt blogging ... yer ...

Finally finish my auntie's beauty fair ... i became part time beautician again ...

wahaha ...

And finally my student finish their theory exam jor ... good ! totally reliased ...

And and finally i went to refer another doctor ... sweat that this doctor told me to have

nose

surgery but ear surgery ... both doctor are expert in ENT in Kuantan ... who should i

listen ? and

i wondering why must want me to do surgery lel for both of them although different

part ?

haix ...

Then the doctor advised me to do a deep ear test ... the report shown that my ear is ok

and not

that serious till need surgery ... ok ! fine ! she decided want me do nose surgery ...

suddenly a

question pop out in my mind and i ask the doctor ... " will there any effect to me after

surgery ?

im a soprano .. im singing .. " ... the doctor looks shock .. and she answer me "YES'!

your voice

might be change but she cannot confirm will change till how ... my mood turn black n

blue when i

heard this ! i love singing ! i love stage ! how could i live without it ! i tell doctor i insist

to sing no

matter what ! in the end ... the doctor want me temporary to try out a new medicine to

control ...

and lets see whether the medicine help or not ... if it doesnt work , i need surgery ... i

really feel

sad ! actually not sad , i also dunno how to describe my mood ! and for now i could

just pray and

take care myself properly... hope that will be ok ..

18/03/2011 ... a wedding performance ... i could just say me myself also not sastify

with the

perform .. the piano is just terrible ! when i 1st touch the piano ... i know it will not be

a good

perform jor ... the result shown that my word is correct .. it suddenly loud suddenly

soft ... and

this had effected the singing .. cause they cannot hear the music i play .. sweat ! i

really hope that

this kind of incident never happen again ..

19/03/2011 ... actually is a very very special date n day for me ... definately not

because of

"supermoon" ... only few and few people know wat it meant to me ... a special day ...

but

something more special that is i never think before is him accom me to pass this

day ... wana

listen story ? here its start ... wakakakakaka ..

After brunch , i follow mami n granny to try a korea medical bed ... they say will help

my

problem .. at there , got korean n china gal ... the china gal very good ! she teach us

many funny

stuff ... so happy ! after that , went K proffesional saloon to have hair wash n "thong"

my hair ...

really good ! then ... at night time .. i received mr mishu 's sms said he had sprain his

toe ... so

stupiak ... and he had went for chinese medication now his leg tied til like a pig leg ...

ngek ngek

ngek ... after i settle my work .. i went his house n wana 38 38 c his leg n laugh at

him ... haha ...

but hor .. when i reach his house , he sat in my car and ask me for a ride ! za dou ! ok !

deal ! we

went tc ... suprise to get 2 can of free revive while pass by .. hehe .. then we went tc 2 ..

we went

there sitting in the car i think for almost 25 min ... then seem that many people

coming , then we

left ... after leave there , we decided to send himself back then i go n meet up my frens

der ... but

hor ... we went tanjung lumpur ... wow .. but i never tell him that today is a special day

to me ...

haha ...

6:21 PM

♥ Thursday, March 10, 2011

Kawaii-Ness ♥

我的问题果真不得再拖延了！

医生说继续再拖，状况只会每况愈下！

所以，这次我不想那么多了！

为自己决定在下星期二作手术！

不赌这一把，我可能要变聋掉也～

而且医生说啦，是７０％对３０％。。。

值得赌！

保佑我吧！

我真的有点害怕！讨厌的胆小鬼！

6:50 AM

♥

Kawaii-Ness ♥

人。。
往往都有站在十字路口徘徊，犹豫不定的时候
我真的很不喜欢要作决定的感觉
但是，现实生活却把我们逼得不得不作选择
一定要取舍之一
多悲哀！
但，这又是悲哀吗？
我，这又是在抱怨生活吗？
最近我在看一本书＂不抱怨，是一种智慧＂
由于我最近身体不太好，加上工作量增加，我才看了不多！
里面其中一项是说＂把悲观的种子丢掉＂
说，总是容易的！但，真正实行却是难上加难

现在的我，又把自己放在十字路口，不停的徘徊。。。
我其实真的不太想到会计所工作的！但，我看得出妈妈想要我去拿拿经验，当作去实习！
可是，我觉得我的时间真的不太够用！
我会担心我练歌练琴的时间不够！
我担心我应付不来钢琴伴奏！
我担心我钢琴的学生的考试！
我担心我教歌唱的部分！
也非常担心自己应付不来歌唱考试！
我，真的可以吗？

一向不喜欢认输的我，却又想让自己挑战一下
希望我可以应付得来！

好吧！决定了！接受挑战吧！
欣宜，对自己有多一点的信心吧！

6:27 AM

♥ Wednesday, March 2, 2011

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midnight again ~ feel consternation n loneliness ... cause till now i cant exactly contact with u ...

actually i know i couldnt be like this ... you are just a fren of mine ... im just a normal fren to

you ... doesnt meant any ... so , you never inform me , you never contact me , i couldnt blame

any .. what i could do is wait and hope you get well soon ...

because of seem last month i hurt my hand , and i decided to stop practise my piano ... now my

hand recover till ok ok ad .. just bit bit painful n sometimes quivering.. so ... these few day .

i have to back up n practice like hell ! sad Y_Y .. those performance is coming soon .. somemore,

next week i got a parttime ... work at beauty fair ... my students are taking exam ... i gotta give

them extra n extra lesson to let them b more confident ... T_T ... so many stuff ...

besides that , today informed by my mum ... i could go and interview at a ACCOUNT FIRM ..

i got a LCCI cert ...

the most important is .. they dont mind i will be not around every Thursday ... so good ! but i still

considering ... cause now all of my part time job related to music ..

but may be no choice for me to consider n choose ~ i need money money money ...

this might a good chance for me ... n i could learn more ..

today , i curi tulang ... just practice a while only for my piano ...

cause , i wanna fast fast finish his present ...

make make make ... i dint realize time past that fast ... when i look at the clock ...

7:30pm ...

ohh my , so late d ... i gptta prepare coz i got class start at 8pm ...

after finish class .. i continue making my present again ... finally ... i finish ...

im so happy ... i wish to meet him up soon n pass the present to him ...

and hopefully he will like it ..

i know the present not perfect .. but ....

and this is the 1st time i making these stuff .. pai seh pai seh ...

12:43 AM

♥ Monday, February 28, 2011

Kawaii-Ness ♥

Its Sunday Monday ... as usual , i get late again cause i really tired and

sleepy ... thats why over sleep ... hehe ..

After my quick prepare , went for quick breakfast ... have to be quick

quick quick so i wont be late for my work ... teaching singing at

10:30am ... HUH ... sempat lagi ... ngam ngam hor ...

10:30am reach there ... as usual practice , i will let them " open voice"

1st .. everything seem well and ok untill one of student suddenlly

pengsan toward to me , and she had knock her forehead to

the piano ... i tak sempat to hold her cause that time i playing the

piano ... but still luckily i hold her before she fall to the floor so that no

more crash ... GOD ! this is really shock me ... without

thinking , after put her to my mum , i called her parents .. but .. isssh ...

couldnt contact up .. my

student just looked very very da weak n she totally no more energy even

spoke a word also

cnt ... pity her ... dun care anymore , my mum straightaway drive her to

the hospital and i force

to stay back to continue teaching ... but then i still keep calling her

parents ... finally get her

parents and noticed by my mum , my student ok ok d ... thanks GOD !

and after that , my mum told me the reason she pengsan ... caused by "

gastric" ! she is just 8/9 years old ... haizh ... still so young lel ..

get gastric ... @@

Today , the stupid devil promise take me to Gambang waterpark der ...

cause i very very

unhappy n upset ... but then when almost time to go , he called up and

tell he still doing his

stuff ... cannot go jor ... Grrrrrrrrr........ make me lagi unhappy ... i have

been early prepared for

that lel ... sienz jor ... no mood d ...

Count count .. today is the 3rd day i lost contact with him ... from the

start of feeling kinda

worry , unhappy , nervous to now ... i give up .. i no feeling ... i

dissapointed ... is ok der ... i know

der ... no worry ... [ when you wana come in my world , you are

welcome ; when you wana leave my world , i will just say goodbye ] ...

this is the term me to you ... i remember ...

Justnow i drive out , pick up my fren , went yc at padi ... then we went to

the beach that nearby

tembeling resort ... i like the view at there ... we off the car enjine , put

down bit bit window and

stay in the car ... i then looking at the view the sea ... i lost my mind ...

leave it blank ... my fren

just sleep at my side ... while i keep blank my mind ... i wish to to cry but i

cnt ... untill i get back

my mind is after almost 1 hour .. haha .. after drive my fren back i also

back home ... while

driving back .. finally my tears drop ... this is the 1st time i cry for you ,

and will be the last time ..

and i remind myself ... everything will be alright .. will be just ok after

cry ...

I will start all over again ... i will make it ! SING YEE will make it ! A lot of

Love is always

surrouding you ...

2:09 AM